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Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 11:16 am
by Byblos
Hi Audie and welcome.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 11:23 am
by RickD
Audie wrote:Kind of a late introduction, anyone inclined to already knows more about me than might usually go into an intro.
Im going to do a bit of soul baring, here now that I've seen how people are here and recognize that nobody would make me regret it.
Im not a person happy or at home in my own skin. A few years ago I stood on a balcony 17 floors above Cloud View Road, in Hong Kong, ready to step off. We dont have guns there, but everyone has a balcony. I only didnt do it because I owe it to my Mom to stay alive.
I was tired of living way down inside myself.
Early in my membership here, I showed a photo not entirely unlike me, but not of myself, to another member, said it was me. I guess if I really liked myself I'd not have, it wouldnt have occurred to me to do that. It was a famous movie actress photo, not much of a disguise.. but still. Im so embarrassed.
I've tried to be unemotional in discussions with people here, but emotional stability isnt my number one strength.
And, having been subjected to extreme abuse by a man, I've unfortunately reacted by being suspicious of, hostile towards, distrusting of men, in general. Anything that feels like someone dehumanizing, putting me down, bullying or coercing in any way tends to get an extreme reaction from me.
I feel like I've mostly kept it under control but it leaks into my posts, anyway.
Im sorry Im like that, and Im sorry for such feelings I have hurt.
I dont really mean it, and its about me, not about others.
Audie,
I'm glad you feel at home enough here to be able to share that with us. It seems like a big step for you to be able to open up like that with us.
Since that was your official introduction, I officially welcome you(you know you've been welcome all along).
So here's an official welcome hug.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 12:39 pm
by 1over137
And hug from me too
And a rose for you
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 12:49 pm
by Jac3510
I would hug you, too, but being sick and all . . . settle for a fistbump?
Glad to have you with us, and glad you think enough of us to be able to share so openly. I think I speak for more than myself when I say that I don't take that lightly. God bless you, Audie.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 1:46 pm
by Rob
Glad you're here, Audie. It's a better place with you here.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 3:37 pm
by Kurieuo
Audie wrote:Kind of a late introduction, anyone inclined to already knows more about me than might usually go into an intro.
Im going to do a bit of soul baring, here now that I've seen how people are here and recognize that nobody would make me regret it.
Im not a person happy or at home in my own skin. A few years ago I stood on a balcony 17 floors above Cloud View Road, in Hong Kong, ready to step off. We dont have guns there, but everyone has a balcony. I only didnt do it because I owe it to my Mom to stay alive.
I was tired of living way down inside myself.
Early in my membership here, I showed a photo not entirely unlike me, but not of myself, to another member, said it was me. I guess if I really liked myself I'd not have, it wouldnt have occurred to me to do that. It was a famous movie actress photo, not much of a disguise.. but still. Im so embarrassed.
I've tried to be unemotional in discussions with people here, but emotional stability isnt my number one strength.
And, having been subjected to extreme abuse by a man, I've unfortunately reacted by being suspicious of, hostile towards, distrusting of men, in general. Anything that feels like someone dehumanizing, putting me down, bullying or coercing in any way tends to get an extreme reaction from me.
I feel like I've mostly kept it under control but it leaks into my posts, anyway.
Im sorry Im like that, and Im sorry for such feelings I have hurt.
I dont really mean it, and its about me, not about others.
Wow, I wasn't expecting that.
Min, as much as we go at each other at times in discussions, please always know its just our difference of beliefs.
I get so very passionate about God, and people get so very passionate about not God/gods if you will.
I really like you as a person and you've been a blessing to my life (you know more about the details of what I mean).
You're definitely an asset at this board and I'd be very sad if you left or ever felt unwelcome.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 8:40 pm
by melanie
Audie, thank you
You are brave and inspiring
"Vulnerability is our most accurate measurement of courage"
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Mon Mar 02, 2015 9:19 pm
by Danieltwotwenty
Audie wrote:Kind of a late introduction, anyone inclined to already knows more about me than might usually go into an intro.
Im going to do a bit of soul baring, here now that I've seen how people are here and recognize that nobody would make me regret it.
Im not a person happy or at home in my own skin. A few years ago I stood on a balcony 17 floors above Cloud View Road, in Hong Kong, ready to step off. We dont have guns there, but everyone has a balcony. I only didnt do it because I owe it to my Mom to stay alive.
I was tired of living way down inside myself.
Early in my membership here, I showed a photo not entirely unlike me, but not of myself, to another member, said it was me. I guess if I really liked myself I'd not have, it wouldnt have occurred to me to do that. It was a famous movie actress photo, not much of a disguise.. but still. Im so embarrassed.
I've tried to be unemotional in discussions with people here, but emotional stability isnt my number one strength.
And, having been subjected to extreme abuse by a man, I've unfortunately reacted by being suspicious of, hostile towards, distrusting of men, in general. Anything that feels like someone dehumanizing, putting me down, bullying or coercing in any way tends to get an extreme reaction from me.
I feel like I've mostly kept it under control but it leaks into my posts, anyway.
Im sorry Im like that, and Im sorry for such feelings I have hurt.
I dont really mean it, and its about me, not about others.
We are all broken, I am glad you are still with us.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 6:33 am
by Storyteller
Audie wrote:Kind of a late introduction, anyone inclined to already knows more about me than might usually go into an intro.
Im going to do a bit of soul baring, here now that I've seen how people are here and recognize that nobody would make me regret it.
Im not a person happy or at home in my own skin. A few years ago I stood on a balcony 17 floors above Cloud View Road, in Hong Kong, ready to step off. We dont have guns there, but everyone has a balcony. I only didnt do it because I owe it to my Mom to stay alive.
I was tired of living way down inside myself.
Early in my membership here, I showed a photo not entirely unlike me, but not of myself, to another member, said it was me. I guess if I really liked myself I'd not have, it wouldnt have occurred to me to do that. It was a famous movie actress photo, not much of a disguise.. but still. Im so embarrassed.
I've tried to be unemotional in discussions with people here, but emotional stability isnt my number one strength.
And, having been subjected to extreme abuse by a man, I've unfortunately reacted by being suspicious of, hostile towards, distrusting of men, in general. Anything that feels like someone dehumanizing, putting me down, bullying or coercing in any way tends to get an extreme reaction from me.
I feel like I've mostly kept it under control but it leaks into my posts, anyway.
Im sorry Im like that, and Im sorry for such feelings I have hurt.
I dont really mean it, and its about me, not about others.
Just to echo what others have said Min, you are an asset to this forum and I am extremely glad you`re with us on here.
You challenge me to think about what I believe, and why. I like your posts and you`re a smart, caring, thoughtful person. I`m glad I know you.
You might be spiky at times but your heart of gold shines through it all.
Thank you for sharing and for trusting us all enough to open up to us like you do.
((((((((((((((Min))))))))))))))
A x
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 7:04 am
by RickD
BTW, who is Min? Isn't your name Audie?
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 7:24 am
by Audie
RickD wrote:BTW, who is Min? Isn't your name Audie?
Its kinda like "Storyteller" may not be an actual first name. She does, after all, sign a pm with a different name. People are like, totally weird that way, dnot you think?
Possibly Abelcainbrother is not a given name, rather than a forum name, but one cant be too sure.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 7:45 am
by RickD
Audie wrote:RickD wrote:BTW, who is Min? Isn't your name Audie?
Its kinda like "Storyteller" may not be an actual first name. She does, after all, sign a pm with a different name. People are like, totally weird that way, dnot you think?
Possibly Abelcainbrother is not a given name, rather than a forum name, but one cant be too sure.
Sure. I just thought your real name was Audie. Like my name is Rick.
Do you prefer to be called Audie, Min, or either?
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 8:38 am
by Kurieuo
Is "either" even a name?
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 9:09 am
by RickD
Kurieuo wrote:Is "either" even a name?
Yes. I went to school with twins named Either and Neither.
I'll just call her AudieMinEither.
Re: Please Introduce Yourself Here
Posted: Tue Mar 03, 2015 11:03 am
by Audie
RickD wrote:Audie wrote:RickD wrote:BTW, who is Min? Isn't your name Audie?
Its kinda like "Storyteller" may not be an actual first name. She does, after all, sign a pm with a different name. People are like, totally weird that way, dnot you think?
Possibly Abelcainbrother is not a given name, rather than a forum name, but one cant be too sure.
Sure. I just thought your real name was Audie. Like my name is Rick.
Do you prefer to be called Audie, Min, or either?
Not too far off on the "real name". I adopted Audie as my "American name" when I thought that was cool. Like in high school.
Audie or Min is fine, either/ Either (one)
