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I've also just have a general distaste and dislike for people/human beings/ whatever you want to call them in general especially since I deal a lot with the public. Mostly I feel like either my entire life or at least most of it a complete waste. Even the stuff I've done for God has been less than fruitful. Even when I try and use the best evidences out there, they all fall on deaf ears. That and I feel very unwanted and very unloved. It seems as though not only will people not show me any love, what's even worse is that, people won't allow me to show them any love or kindness. It seems like everyone thinks everyone has ulterior motives behind everything they do.
That and where I've never have had much of a love life and long to be a husband and a father and seeing time and opportunities slip away from me, I obviously try to find hope and fulfillment for these things by turning to God but it's so difficult to find fulfillment for something that requires a female from a God that is either male or at the very least always referred to as a HE. I need prayer for strength, endurance and for something good to happen to me that will at least take my mind off all these bad things that are going all around me. Thank you all so much for all the help you have given me especially you bippy123, Thank you all so much, God bless and I love you all.