I really do appreciate it, thank you!
Your forgiveness thread was/is one that is helping me a lot.
I`m not quite ready to share why, suffice to say that I have someone to forgive too, it`s hard, the hurt runs so deep, hence the drinking I think. To let go of that hurt, that anger is so very hard, even when you want to.
It is hard. I understand Annette, and whilst I have overcome a lot I am still on my journey of healing
The patience and love and empathy you so effortlessly show to others you need to give yourself. Never be too hard on yourself. Being a christian doesn't mean being perfect it means being real. Being real is enlightning and freeing but it asks us to be authentic. Authentically flawed, hurt and damaged. Not hiding behind but what we think we should be but honest and brave enough to admit what we are.
I have so much love and respect for you because you have chosen to bare yourself and walk the 'real' path. So many people don't. There is no such thing as a perfect christian, don't ever distance yourself because you don't think your good enough, your humilty and honesty reveals so much more about you than you realise.
A beauty, a fragility, a strength, an ability to expose what you would rather cover over and turn it over not to weakness nor failure but to authenticity.
God sees us for who we are.
Our heart is what displays us.
Not our failures or discrepancies.
But our love. Our faith.
He heals the rest. Little by little. Bit by bit.
Couple steps forward, few steps back sometimes, but if we never leave His side He leads us to victory.