An update and a few random thoughts....
My drinking is well under control, down to 2 or 3 glasses of wine twice a week.
Been going to Mass, am still pondering Catholicism.
Family life is on track and life is good.
I am still praying, reading and just generally drawing closer to God.
Random thoughts...
This forum brings me closer to God. By pondering the big questions I am unearthing smaller questions that I do find answers to. I am discovering things, finding my way and I think God is leading me somewhere.
I really enjoy the exchanges I have here, both on the boards and in pm. There have been some very interesting things brought up.
I used to think I had no right to "spread the Word" How can I when I know so little of Scripture? Now, I think I`m missing the point....... I may not be able to talk about Scripture (although apparently I know more than some who attend church!) but I can talk about my faith and what it means to me.
I feel like a child compared to most on here but maybe that is my strength.
I had a customer in my shop who noticed my Rosary, we started talking, he asked lots of questions, I just told him what I thought personally, and what God and faith meant to me, he ended up buying a Bible and has said he will read it and give it all some thought. How awesome is that? He told me it was because I was the first Christian he had met that was willing to admit that I could be totally, utterly, horribly wrong about all this but it`s what I believe.
Why do we label people? Christian. Atheist. Muslim, whatever. I have a new one... non Christian
I pray to God that I will never be one of those self righteous, preaching, arrogant, believe in God or you`re all damned type of believer. I wanna stay like me. Unsure of my ability and strengths but secure in my faith.
I am constantly thinking Ooooooo, a new step on my journey with Christ. Sometimes I can`t wait for the day where I will finally meet and be with God but then I think but I have so much to discover here first.
I`ve started writing, all of this, some of the posts I`ve made on here along with some thoughts. I think it`ll be interesting to read over in a few years, see how much further down the road I am.
I feel braver talking to people about my faith. I`ve stopped thinking it`s my job to "convert" people, that`s up to God, He`s way better at it than I will ever be, all I can do is tell people how I feel.
Tols ya there were gonna be some random thoughts
