A lot to unpack here. But God DOES hear the sincere prayers of those who want to know the truth of His existences, and who want to know WHO He is (amongst the choices they may or may not know of). Cornelius, the Roman centurion, amongst the first of the Gentile converts of Christ, did not yet know Jesus, nor the Gospel, only first hearing it because God honored his prayers of seeking Him, by sending Peter with the Gospel message. Which also relates to WHAT prayers of unbelievers does God listen to: Its those whom are seeking His will for them and their lives.Ice: Ironically, the Christian God makes the most sense to me. However, I do not have enough faith to accept Jesus Christ as the incarnation of God
Note that God HAS ALREADY and ALWAYS known of every single prayer every person who ever lives will ever utter. And He also knows what His will is and precisely what His response will be to those prayers, as He interacts with humans in real time during their lives on earth. The key to prayers being effective are, is the prayer request submitted in God's will to answer it - whether at all, or whether in a way different than requested. Sometimes NO answer to prayer IS an answer - that the prayer was not something in God's will for us. No doubt, God knows our hearts and minds as to what we pray - our motives, sincerity - all of that. But we also must realize that while God IS concerned about our well-being and needs here on earth, that He is far more concerned with our eternal needs and spiritual growth. He is not a money machine, although people act as if He is. And no doubt, God has considered every possible aspect of one's prayers - as to how they do or do not line up for His will for them, and as how they also line of with His collective will for countless others.
Lastly, we're told in Scripture that "your Father knows what you need before you ask him" (Matthew 6:8). And, "For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words" (Romans 8:26).
Ice, my constant prayer for you would be that you feverently and sincerely ask God to show you the truth about Who Jesus is. Never forget, that of the 12 disciples and the one whom replaced Judas (Matthias), all but one of those men continued to preach that they had seen the risen Christ after the Resurrection. THINK about that! Would all of those men risk what happened to Jesus, a brutal scouraging and unthinkably horrible death, IF THEY KNEW THAT JESUS DID NOT RISE AFTER DEATH AND THEY NEVER SAW HIM ALIVE AGAIN???!!! The other, the Apostle John, also continued to preach a resurrected Christ and suffered greatly for that. WHY would they ALL risk that - IF they had, subsequent to the Crucifixion, never seen the risen Christ? As they would have ALL realized that Jesus was a complete fraud and madman, thinking and claiming Himself to be God, who was only a deluded lunatic that 1) got Himself killed, and 2) if they continued His Messiah narrative, they would likely (and did!) suffer the very same fate.
Ice, also consider the Apostle Paul - an upcoming rockstar amongst the religious establishment, gaining great favor and prestige for his reknowned zeal for rooting out Christians, having them beaten, killed, etc. One of the most educated men and great intellectuals of his time, the "Jew's JEW," whom hated Christians and their "deluded Jesus cult," dedicated to eradicating them - one must ask, why, WHY did Paul suddenly and almost immediately GO OVER TO THE SIDE OF THOSE HE FORMERLY DESPISED???!!! What could have possibly have been his motive? He lost and gave up everything that he had considered important - his prestige, status, security of being with the ultimate Jewish status quo - for WHAT??? Beatings, prision, impoverishment, the constant threat of death, great danger, being deprived of food, shelter, etc. Was he ALSO a madman? Does not the only thing that makes sense is that ALL these many men actually encountered the RISEN Christ? Why ELSE??? READ their writings - scrutinized by millions of Christians and scholars, for centuries. Their collective influence has been a major force in Western thinking and spiritual thought. Their writings, the most sober and rational arguments laid out with almost classical thinking and approach. Their relation of their own sad actions, fears, doubts, and disarray prior to seeing the risen Jesus, honestly recorded. This ragtag crew of men absolutely changed the world forever. WE mark time itself by the approximated birth of Christ. All this because some mad, obscure Jewish rabbi got himself killed (and nearly everyone who followed Him), in some godforsaken Roman backwater place like Palestine?
Ice, fervently pray one key pray: God, WHO really was Jesus? Was He part of your Trinity? Was He GOD??? If you really want the truth, 1) DESIRE the truth, 2) be prepared to embrace it and follow it!