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by Storyteller
Fri Jan 03, 2020 4:54 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

Oh, and i talked to an alcohol and drug abuse service...
It's cbt based, know that well. They offer counselling, detox and rehab.
Will get an apt through in the next few days.
I'm finally ready guys...
by Storyteller
Fri Jan 03, 2020 4:50 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

So... New Years Eve i had an epiphany... I had drunk 22 units of alcohol. I have drunk, pretty much every day of my life since i was 24 years old. I'm 50 this year. Sure, i've had days where i haven't drunk but only because i know i will. If that doesn't make me an alcoholic, what does? The last two...
by Storyteller
Fri Jan 03, 2020 4:26 pm
Forum: Questioning Non-belief
Topic: Something from nothing
Replies: 12
Views: 3889

Re: Something from nothing

God is existence.
by Storyteller
Thu Oct 31, 2019 11:45 am
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

I will
by Storyteller
Thu Oct 31, 2019 2:25 am
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

We talk about God all the time, at length. He has aspergers so for him, he needs empirical proof. He is definitely moving towards Christ. We live on different continents so waiting until we are married will be easy enough. The BDSM community covers everything from spanking to swinging. There are mes...
by Storyteller
Wed Oct 30, 2019 12:50 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

I hear what you're saying. Okay, Fooz isn't a Christian but he isn't a non believer either. Fooz is a good man, he would rather be right than happy. His ethics and morals are more in line with the teaching of Christ than a lot of Christians i know. I know, absolutely, in my soul that him and i being...
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 29, 2019 7:53 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

I have made a promise, in front of God, just fooz and I that I am commiting to him. I am married to him in my soul. Everything we do is consensual. I posted about my faith on a kink forum and got a lot of positive feedback. Show me how bdsm is wrong. Show me how communicating with, discussing bounda...
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 29, 2019 1:03 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

I appreciate your points, all of them. I did everything I could to stay in my marriage. I endured abuse. My relationship with my ex as improved since we split. He's happier, I'm happier, our daughter is happier. I have absolutely no doubts about my marriage ending. I have taken a lot of positive thi...
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 29, 2019 8:35 am
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

Also...
I have talked to people within the bdsm community about my faith. People are listening, and asking questions.
Maybe this is part of Gods plan?
If i am to help people become closer to God then i need to be among the people that need His light, no?
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 29, 2019 8:28 am
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

And.... I feel more married to Fooz than i ever did to my husband. I'm not convinced Bdsm practices are sinful. If i had posted all the above but instead of bdsm it was just sexual activity, it'd be as much of a sin, yes? I don't feel I'm sinning by engaging in bdsm, maybe by being intimate while st...
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 29, 2019 8:22 am
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

Guys.... I appreciate your thoughts and i'm pondering and praying. I stuck with my marraige. For years. My sexual preferences have been "vanilla" and there are a lot of misconceptions about BDSM. Sure, there are people that abuse the dynamics of a Dominant/submissive but within a loving relationship...
by Storyteller
Fri Oct 25, 2019 4:23 pm
Forum: Christian Testimonies
Topic: My journey
Replies: 509
Views: 64282

Re: My journey

Each time I start to stray away... every time I doubt.. Sometimes I don't feel good enough, yet He keeps giving me chances. Chances to learn whatever lesson it is. My life is changing, again, I go back to work in November. My leg is healing, physio is tough but everything I am going through feels.. ...
by Storyteller
Thu Oct 24, 2019 3:04 am
Forum: Christian Chit-chat
Topic: Rejection :(
Replies: 66
Views: 7441

Re: Rejection :(

"One has to ask themself, do they want to pursue what GOD wants, or only what they want, for the future of their marriage" This is still something i ask myself. With hindsight, we made so many mistakes and we were together for all the wrong reasons. We were both wounded, deeply wounded creatures. I ...
by Storyteller
Wed Oct 23, 2019 12:34 pm
Forum: Christian Chit-chat
Topic: Rejection :(
Replies: 66
Views: 7441

Re: Rejection :(

While i don't disagree with what philip has posted, my experience of counselling (from a Christian counsellor) wasn't helpful. In fact, it made things worse, possibly because my ex wouldn't accept any of the blame. Since splitting up, despite it being a really bad situation at the time, we get on so...
by Storyteller
Tue Oct 22, 2019 1:35 am
Forum: Christian Chit-chat
Topic: Rejection :(
Replies: 66
Views: 7441

Re: Rejection :(

Nicki: "Thanks - you're probably right. I just feel I've been through so much hurt in my life, being a sensitive person - right now I'm wishing I could cut out my heart and replace it with a tougher one." Doesn't' work. I tried that. Years ago, my ex and I were in bed, we'd fought, his goodnight to...