According to your what you said, if a person had enough money, they could pay you to commit suicide; all they would have to do is pay you a billion dollars to convince yourself that you could fly like a bird, then pay you another billion to demonstrate it by jumping off the Golden Gate bridge. It doesn't work that way for me because reason and logic would not allow me to believe something I know is impossible; not even for all the money in the world, but evidently it does for you; right?
No. Please ignore the silliness of what I said there. I was talking about what I said here:
You're missing the point. You have thought about the idea that God exists. You have looked at different arguments from both sides. And in your mind, you think the arguments for God not existing, outweigh the arguments for His existence. Therefore, you choose to believe God doesn't exist.
Whatever we believe about anything, we choose to believe that, as opposed to something else.
I choose to believe my wife loves me, as opposed to choosing to believe she doesn't.
I choose to believe that if I go to the beach on a summer day in Florida, without sunscreen, I will get a sunburn.
I choose to believe God exists.
You do understand that, don't you?
What part of that would you possibly disagree with?