thatkidakayoungguy wrote:Storyteller wrote:thatkidakayoungguy wrote:Wow. I had these BDSM feelings (spanking, dominatrix) starting about 9 or so! Didn't get much into it till about 13 or so, and even then it wasn't much until high school hit and I got the internet.
I was a late starter
On a serious note, do you have any idea why you feel you want this?
Are you just curious? Do you feel you need to be punished, or corrected in some way? Why do you feel the need to be dominated? Is it just kinda like a sideline or do you need it, depend on it?
For me, I find it harder to deal with tenderness than "abuse." Whip me and I'll love you, kiss me and I'll crumble.
Not entirely sure, but as I said somewhere in this thread, it kinda comes from a rough past. But not entirely.
Now that I understand.
You recognise your need, or want, for it. Know where it comes from. You're exploring it, and how you feel about it and you're seeking guidance. That's all good.